Rise Up

You are a mirror, yet you see so deep.
You are truth, you point out every wrong.
But you intrigue and you fascinate.
You do not stand for mild manner integrity,
but strive for holy intimacy.
We are one in the same.
A generation filled with passion.
A fire cool to the touch,
but consuming the world
with the desire the Most High.
Place off these markings of sin you see.
Throw out these doubts and fear which ensnares you.
Pride wishes to entice you.
Lust places traps and snares before you.
You are a target like it or not.
You are the one demons seek to destroy.

You are marked with My love as evidence to all.
For I have marked you with love.
Because this world no longer understands the treasures it hides;
and if they wish not to understand it.
It is passed to the youth.
For they are searching and seeking for love,
and only can you understand the love I have
if you seek with your heart and not your mind.
For your mind will follow your heart.
This generation has been marked.
This generation has been sealed.
This generation has been placed for all to see.
This generation is a target of the enemy.
It is the desire of the enemy to see you fall,
but do not fear or coward away,
for I will protect you.
My only plead is that you'll be weak.
For in your weakness my strenght will be seen.
You are a generation unwilling to be second best.
A generation placed with the desire of perfection.
A generation understanding the heart of worship,
a heart of service, a heart of love, faith, and joy.
The steps placed before you are for each his own.
Each extended with the purpose to glorify Me.
I will not place your foot or in the way which you must go;
for the decision is yours alone to follow Me,
and doubt does not rest in My heart
that their backs will forever turn away
because I chose them.
I chose them as I hung on the cross.
I chose them before they were born.
I chose them while they were drinking.
I chose them while they were smoking.
I chose them while they were lying and deceiving.
I chose him as he lay iin bed with someone who's not meant to be his wife.
I chose her as she forsake her first love for another man.
I chose them in their dishonesty.
I chose them in their shame.
I chose them as I took the nails as consequence for their sins.
Rise up, rise up!
You, generation who strives to be "it".
You, who strive to deny yourselves but are unable.
You, who are humble and unknown bu society.
You, whose pictures line lockers, and your name is known here and there.
You, who have known Me and followed Me always.
I'm calling you.
I'm reaching out to you.
You are the genration of the end times.
You are a generation of prophets and servants.
You are a generation of speakers and actors.
You are a generation of leaders.
And you have been calle dto lead this darkened world;
to lead them from shame and slander and ill minded tempers;
tolead them to truth, to love, tolife, to Me.
Rise up, do not fear!
Stand firm, on your knees.
Let Me use you, let Me use you.
Let Me help with the liberation of your schools.
Let Me rise you upin humility, in love, in My Spirit, and purity.
Now is the time for you to move.
Donot wait for Me to ask you again.
There is no more time tobe wasted.
Now is the time for you to begin.
Watch the arrows of persecution fly by.
See the battles of trials rage in your life
and bow down in thge streams of peace.
For I Am your sustainer and your protector.
Rise for tomorrow is a new day,
and your time has come
to rise those still slumbering
and bring those who are dead into life.

Tonight we ride for the day is coming.
And you, generation of purity,
you will heal in the perfect light.
Do not wait for Him to come.
But rise now that your generation may met Him face to face.
Rise, rise.
And come, follow the way placed before you.

Beautifully Broken

Lord, do you see? Do you the darkness that builds up in me? Do you see the pain that cripples me? Do you hear every tear that streak down my face as I cry in helplessness? Do you feel my sob as I shook in anxiousness, hoping that someone will come and hold me, fragile as I am? But to my dismay found no one near; found no one who could help. Found no one who could ease the pain and calm the storm in me. Lord, how? Lord, how do you put up with this? Why? Lord, why? Why do you let me be pulled in? Why do you allow this paranoia to wound me? Wound me in the deepest part of my being. The very being that, I, myself does not know well. Where are you Lord? Let not coldness envelop me but only the warmth of your peace and love alone.

Oh Lord my days are but vapour, and how I wish that my end would just be a swift. Truly Lord, I must not know you that well. For I can not understand why you would let me be laid broken first, like shattered porcelain, that I may be whole and pure like silver without dross. What am I then Lord that your eyes are on me? Aren’t I like the vapour that runs and hides in the ever changing wind or the dreams that come vaguely and are often forgotten as the sun peeks from the glorious mountain tops that your own hands made? I know that I am nothing, a mere portion of a single pixel in your marvellous masterpiece, but why then Lord must you seek after me as if I was of any worth to you. It doesn’t illuminate the blackness that clouds my mind. Shouldn’t I be the one seeking you? Shouldn’t I be the one celebrating? I am left dumbfounded by your mercy and grace. Is this truly how you love Lord? Then Lord let me understand, reveal yourself to me.

Why do you plan my every step? Why do you care so much? And yet, even though you see the cliff that I may fall from you tell me to walk as the crow flies for your plans are perfect and are unblemished. Oh God, how can I fathom your majesty and how can I question your authority, I clearly have no right. But God though you slay me, yet will I hope in you (Job 13:15). For destruction is not what awaits me at the end of the precipice but absolute freedom, complete and true. And yet am I just deceitful to my own heart and to you by declaring such things; declaring such confidence when I bend lowly in cowardice? I am feeble. Hopeless as I seem, nevertheless my mind still aver that I should hold on to what my mouth declares. You, after all, made it clear that my faith should be never being based on my meagre and unfounded sentiments. God, take my wretched heart then and free me; for I don’t want to be a prisoner of my own doubts and unfaithfulness. Let me not worry on what I fear in front of me or in me but give strength and hold me close, that I may be reminded that you hold my yesterdays, today, and tomorrows.

And God, if reality completely fades, please promise me that you’ll remain my only truth.

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Please, say hello, look deep into my eyes and I will share with you the gripping terror which inhabits me, but it’s not control of the moment minimal, simply from joy penetrating me like the sun in the middle of winter breaking through thick clouds to melt away the chill, but the time has come as I watch it set, surrendering me to the darkness of myself, the one thing, the only thing that I have come to fear. I sit and cling tight to this open thinking letter by letter what words best describe yet could never emphasize these overwhelming feelings; fear, love, hate, peace, grief, desire, contentment, , disbelief, agony, joy, life. Inhaling deep, feeling the detoxification of the air inside, unwilling to let it escape, wondering if I have strength enough to hold it in, or even greater strength to exhale and face the breath before.
The truth being, I contain no strength at all as I breathe repeatedly, unaware but consumed by God, whose strength allows me to live, yet even more desire me to live for him. God the creator, the maker of all, the source of life, the reason of existence, the all seeing, all knowing, all caring, all of everything; God, whom we see in everything around us, as we stare to the stars, stars which were made by His words spoken through nothing, which fit in the very palm of his hands, this God of inexpressible glory, lives in me, desires me, seeks after me. Me a person made from dust, who will return to dust, who, covers myself in the dirt and scum of this world, I, who simply can’t, simply never understand who He really is, He wants me and I am undeserving.
But here I am, forgive me Lord, save me from the punishment of death, save me and love me, but do away with me. For you know and have seen the representation I give your name, hypocritical me. Please do not allow me to hurt you anymore, whatever it takes Lord, let me be anything but a blemish of who you are, though I hesitate in saying such things for I know I am flesh, I am dirt, and I am easily persuaded by the desire of which that surrounds me, but I ask you, save me, love me, direct me; cause me to love you, do not allow me to fall away from you, hold me, I’m yours.

For Whom?

Luke 19:10
"For the Son of Man came to seek and save what was lost."

we Christians (especially new ones) have that great tendency to be infuriated at how devious the world is, and think that those so-called "super sinners" (e.g. smokers, drinkers, murderers, or just your unbearably annoying school bully) are condemned, and deserve to rot in hell. this is NOT the mark of a Christian! we're forgetting that we're the ones TO BE JUDGED, and it was for the sinners that Jesus died on the cross for.

right now, i have a number of friends who were once considered to be "super sinners", wasting their lives on drugs, liquors, relationships, etc. but then Jesus came into their lives and changed them drastically, and now, they're blazing with His fire.

in fact, there's no such thing as a super sinner, or a mild sinner, for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God (Romans 3:23). every one of us have sinned against God, whether intentional or unintentional, we have sinned.

fact is, we should be sensitive when it comes to our every action. if you recognize your unfaithfulness then, now, and the days to come, then great! bring it all to Jesus because He will forgive you. a Christian understands the need for a Savior to save them from their transgressions, for the wages of sin is death.

so the next time someone tap-dances on your last good nerves, don't condemn them. pray for them. or better yet, reach out to them! you'll never know what God can do in their lives.

keep it in mind that when we all once dwelt in hopelessness, our Father was busy searching for us

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God Forgives

Psalms 130:3-4

"If you, O Lord, Kept a record of sins, O Lord, who could stand? But with You there is forgiveness; therefore You are feared."

the moment we receive Christ into our lives, we turn against the perspective of the world and, begin that 180 degree turn. we are now more likely to fall into sin rather than dive into it. we have, therefore, become missionaries and are called to serve God.

but it is not something anyone should take with pride, because we are no more than privilaged to be called by Him.

we always praise God for the things He has done in our lives, yet we tend to forget to praise Him for not remembering our sins. theough we are made righteos through Him, we can NEVER be righteos without Him.

if we had a marble for every sin we've ever committed, God knows how big of a box it would need to contain it all. but because God loves us so much, He chose to ignore every single one! as humans, we forget that forgiving one sin committed against us isn't as easy as it sounds, and turn a deaf ear whenever we hear someone reminding us to forgive thy neighbor. God's love is so powerful that He is willing to forgive our hundreds (if not thousands) of sins. when jesus Christ died on the cross, it displayed His unfathomable love for us because He does not want us to burn and die in all eternity in hell, for the wages of sin is death.

there's NO sin God cannot forgive, that's why we should fear and praise Him. furthermore, just because God can forgive, doesn't mean we should abuse that grace.

what He wants from us is our constant love and devotion for Him which means we should love God more than anything or anyone else on earth.

He is always willing to forgive, and so should we, for if we forgive, we will also be forgiven. we should keep it in mind that He has forgotten our transgressions, and that we could NEVER be without Him. if at times it seems difficult for us to forgive, take a moment to look back to the cross and see how much one man was willing to go through to forgive the world of its sins.

Convicting:

Think about this.. do you have the courage to say these words even if everyone around you is listening, or even if you're just alone in your own room?

Lord God, I hate you,

but I don't want to.

You were always with me, but I was never with You

You wanted to come in, but I never let You

You have loved me, but I've always forsaken You!

Now heal me of my sins and burdens.

... scared you, didn't i? but that's not the issue.. most people don't realize they're actually not loving God who has always loved them. that's actually equal to hating Him! but still He offers shelter when storms strike and love when we need it most.. question is, have we actually taken the step to actually love God?

What God Said

I know what you’ve been through

I know your pains

I know your struggles

I remember

I remember when the enemy struck a painful blow on you

I remember when you stumbled when the wind blew

I remember when you fell when the waves crashed

I remember the moments you used to kindle the fire of pain in your heart, spending it on your own self-destruction

I remember every tear you shed for I counted them

I remember your sleepless nights

I remember when you began to lose hope

I remember when darkness consumed you

But I sought you

Why?

Because you are my flock

You are my child

You are my beloved

Though the storms begin to strike,

Though the tides begin to rise,

Though the world may crumble,

I am your only shelter.

Come hide under my wings

Come feel my warmth

Come smell my scent

Come receive my love for you

Fret not when you do so.

You continue to stray

You continue to run from me

You continue to hide from me

Still I rush to find you

For my love for you is too strong

Now that I’ve found you weary,

I invite you back to come rest in me

Every wound that causes you pain, I will heal.

Every scar that reminds you of such pain, I will take away.

Every bit of sadness, I will replace with joy.

Everything in you, I will renew.

All your cries I have heard

All your prayers I have answered

You were never abandoned

You were never forsaken.

Cast your burdens on my feet.

Look to me for strength and your eagle’s wings will span and you will soar over the ruins of the past.

Come take off your old self so I can cleanse you

Come receive your new self and put it on.

I am your savior

I am your king

I am your lover

I am your friend

Now take my hand and hold it, and together we shall walk to eternity.

Treasures

All alone I found myself standing
In my hand was a bag filled with my treasures.
All alone I stood and then someone called
I look up and saw Jesus
He was standing on the topmost of a long plight of stairs
Yet I was there at the bottom.
He called out to me again
He told me to come up to Him.
To come as I am.
So I started the climb
With my bag filled with treasure,
Still I tightly held, afraid I might lose some.
But as I got higher
The stairs got steeper
And I found myself unable to move any farther.
Hindered by the weight of my treasures.
I look at to Jesus and cried out to Him,
“I can’t go on any farther LORD,
Tell me what I must do?”
He looked at me
His eyes filled with love and He said,
“Let go”
I look at my treasures
I couldn’t let go,
Not all of it.
So I took a handful
And reluctantly let go.
Now the weight I could manage,
And I continued my climb.
But still as I got higher
The same think happened.
“Let go”, my LORD would say
But still I only let go of a portion.
Over and over again
And it hurt me to let go of bits of my treasure.
I was standing in front of Jesus.
In my hand was my last treasure.
A gem so dear and precious to me.
I see Jesus, my Lover and King.
Finally I could be with my Prince
Only a step more to go.
So made my last step
But I found myself still standing,
Unable to move
Not even an inch farther.
I looked at Jesus with worry and confusion
“LORD, why can’t I reach you? Tell me why?”
He looked at me with compassion
And said again,” Let go.”
So I looked at Him,
With a heart filled with distress,
As I looked at the bright, shiny gem
In my hands I carefully held.
My heart was ready to break.
I cried once more,
“But LORD if I let go, I will be empty.
LORD, all my silver and gold are gone,
Please don’t take away my last treasure.”
I see the eyes of LORD still filled with love,
Though my heart was filled with me
Though I disobeyed Him and compromise
My LORD was still there
He just waited patiently for me.
“Let go”, He said.
“Let go, that you will be completely empty.
I want you to be empty,
So that I could fill you with ME.
Let go of your false treasure,
Temporary and unfulfilling.
Let go of it all,
For I am your real treasure.”
Jonah 2:8-9
Those who cling on to worthless idols
Forfeit the grace that could be theirs.
But I, with thanksgiving
Will sacrifice to you.
What I have vowed I will make good.
Salvation comes from the LORD.

Receiving and Surrendering

I just read a very powerful statement in Passion and Purity. It talks about why we should surrender everything to God. Before, it wasn’t clear why I should surrender everything to Him. I kept on thinking, “why?” And God was just kept on asking me to surrender. Now I know why.

He gave all.
He asks for all.

Because of His great love, He gave His only son, Jesus Christ, to die on the cross for all our sins. He saved us from the punishment we were due. And because He didn’t hold anything back from us, He asks us to do the same.

I am bought with a price. And God paid for me. Now He asks me for my life. To give everything to Him. And when I really think about it, my life is worth nothing. Yet He asks for it. And the best thing that I can do is to give it to Him. To let Him use me for His glory and for His great plan. I have received the best from Him. Now all I have to do is to surrender my all.

Oh Child by Nevertheless

I want to come closer

But you are so distant

Lately your thoughts are so far

And I want to show you all that you’re missing

I’ll meet you right where you are

Oh love, I’ve always known you

Oh love, you’ve always been mine

Oh love, I’m only asking you for your life

Say that you need me

I know what you’re feeling

You cannot do this alone

I gave my word and I gave you my life

So you’ll never be on your own

Oh love, I’ve always known you

Oh love, you’ve always been mine

Oh love, I’m only asking you for your life

Is this what you wanted?

Is this what you needed?(You’re waiting for this life to be what you’ve been waiting for…)
Oh love, I’ve always known you

Oh love, you’ve always been mine

Oh love, I’m only asking you for your life

Oh love, I’ve always known you

Oh love, you’ve always been mine

Oh child, I’m only asking you for your life

Selah

Give me a reason why we want to live.
Give me a reason why even through hardships we still want to push forward.
Give me a reason why we look forward to the bright tomorrow when we are in still in darkness.
Tell me why we let people see that we are happy even though every bit of us is hurting?
Tell me why because I only know of one reason.
That reason is Jesus.

awesome His plans are when I let go of my own plans to follow His.
He who fills me with His treasure when I finally empty myself of the idols I'm clinging to.
He who whispers to my heart that He will wipe away my tears and make me beautiful again when I admit that I am broken.
He who says that He will fight the wars for me, when I honestly tell Him that I can't do it.
He who will fill my heart with joy by living to please Him.
He who will bring victory if I will surrender to Him.
He who will run towards us if we only take the first step forward.

He is the reason why I look forward to a better tomorrow.
That He has plans for me; plans not to harm me but to give me hope and future.
That He will never leave me nor forsake me whatever the circumstances might be.
That He will never leave me when my heart is broken but will draw closer to me instead.
He tells me that He is the parent to the orphans.
That He is the light for the lost.
He is the comfort for the weary.
That if we find ourselves with nothing, He is our everything.
That He will never forsake me even if my sanity will.
That even though I find myself in confusion and in disorder, He will turn them into beauty and order in His perfect time.

He is the reason why I don't give up on life.
For He is always is with me and wants to be with me.
For He loves me, He loves us so much that He is willing to die for us.
The very truth that the King of Kings,
the LORD on high, the star breather and heart former,
the beginning and end, the almighty God who alone is good,
pure, and worthy cares for me;
I,who compare to Him, am nothing.
That even if I fall and stumble, He will just pick me up.
That even if I fail, all He will ever show me is His undying love.
That undying love that He showed me and everybody through His death on that cross.
On that cross where He willingly let His blood be spilled.
The blood that paid all the sins that we can't pay for ourselves.
He embraced the punishment that ought to be upon us.
He died so that we may live.

The only reason I see is Jesus.
Tell me a reason greater than that?
If not, then He is the only reason.
He should be our purpose to live.
He should be the shoulder we cry on.
That He should be that tomorrow were waiting for.
He should be the arms we should run to.
After all, He is all that we need and He is more than enough.
That He is the one who will satisfy the thirst of my heart.
The hunger of our soul.
He alone is the one who could fill the gaps of my heart.
He alone will complete me.
Only Him.

That's why He is my only reason.